Anonymous said: Also your blog is inspiring, part of what I'm studying at the moment is patient embarrassment associated with certain health conditions and you are honestly such a leader to be blogging about a type of cancer that should be talked about a lot more!
Thank you! Nothing will humble you more than a serious bowel condition. IBD, cancer, whatever- it’s a constant nightmare. From my experience, I think bowel cancer patients have a harder time discussing their problems because it’s all so new. Before my tumor I had a great GI tract. Super regular with like, maybe 2 memorably embarrassing moments in 23 years. Suddenly everyday is “shameful”. A relative asks you why you’re wincing- do you tell them it’s because radiation therapy has burnt away most of the skin tissue between your bum cheeks? You encounter a line of people for a washroom- do you announce that the tumor on your rectal muscles makes it near impossible to hold anything? It sucks.
At some point you just have to decide to not care. Sure, it’ll start as an act but in time it’ll feel real.